Lavender dreams of Provence

"It's hard to be not like everyone.  You’re trying to be on a par with environment, but they are rejecting you. You feel a pain somewhere inside you and trying to hide it. Not only from others, but from yourself too.

But sooner or later the true feelings come out. And you want to run away from this place. Run away..but where? Probably where you may not feel loneliness. To where your family will always be there and never leave you. To where your soul will always feels light, warmth and rest. Of course I know that this place does not exist. Does not exist..

But wait..what is this? I hear the voice..the voice that calls me. It is so dear and familiar. Yes, he calls me..and I must run. Run as fast as possible.

I see how flowers are bloom around me, and understand that this is not the end. I understand that life is just beginning for me, let me have to live it again. But this time I will not change and will reach my goal. I'm not going to run away more..In this time, I will move to meet towards to my destiny, no matter what are waiting me there, ahead. And even if my wings will weaken and will not be able to fly, I'll still go ahead. I know that I can find the strength to take the next step. I will be able to defeat my fears and overcome all the obstacles on my path.

I know how difficult and dangerous this road is, coz I passed it more than once. It is full of pain, sorrow and grief. But my heart tells me to go forward and only forward. And I believe that somewhere there a new world waits me. World that will open his hugs for me and give me a warmth and peace.

And let my dream of a new and loving home is just a dream, but I believe that very soon it will become a reality. I will always believe.."